I have been watching movies for most of the weekend. They include:
- Two Girls and a Guy– This movie is with Robert Downey Jr. In 1996 or so, I went to a job fair in Tyson’s Corner. I think it was at the Ramada Inn right on 7 just up from the mall. Sprint was the host. At the receptionist’s desk– there was a guy that looked just like Robert Downey Jr. After watching this movie the other night– I said– “I am so flattered. Boy is he talented.” Why do I keep giving you my resume? See below… and this post.
- Rent– I cried at the end of this movie which is a musical version of the stage play. Why? I talk to a lot of people during the day. Pentagon, CIA, media, Congress. The Generals. One in particular. I often think– I am sorry they did this too you. I am sorry you told me they did this to you. I also wonder if the stigma associated with illness caused some to just worry too much. I then think about their salaries, life, how long many have lived with the illness [speed the answer here], etc.. and say– but you are doing alright. “Doin Alright” by Tower of Power is a song that WHUR plays every Sunday around 6:55 pm or so. Many of the white generals who log in– tell me they like a lot of the music I listen too.. I asked if they were scared. And then I said– but you are doing okay– and maybe you just did not know you could live and live okay. I hate thinking a general is scared. It made me cry.
- Kill Bill Vol 1 and 2
- Mansfield Park
General, I am not doing alright. I am sane and mostly can stay content with project after project. I have a creative mind and my ideas work. WiredPages- one example.. it is in disrepair right now– however my hands are tied.
I am told– Friday that just past was the day- and then abandoned again. Then I suffered all weekend with constant vibrations. I keep telling the FBI agent on duty- “REMOVE ALL” works without voiding registered keys. They keep telling me I know too much.
The week coming up- also I am out of here. That said– recently someone offered “white women lost a lot of respect for you when you cracked your tooth”. I looked up in pure astonishment– and asked which tooth.
This is what I looked liked this morning– and most mornings.
I am not sure– why they continue to try to belittle me. They always ask me why don’t I dress and do my hair and makeup. My clothes require dry cleaning– i have explained. I did not invite you into my home and have no intention of trying to look attractive for you. Most seem to like my breasts. I would not go near any of them– so I am not sure why they continue to comment on my looks.
I got up this morning and tried on this suit jacket, in case I have to get ready to start going inside the bank, seeing lawyers, doctors, etc. They say any day now.
The jacket is from one of my mother’s suits. Hers was a pants suit. I have the same type of suits– but mine are smaller and had matching skirts. My surveillance team this morning also thought I would “clean up” easily and look very professional. This bothered them. When they are not hating that I can pencil in eyebrows and look– cuter they are hating that I can dress and look “very professional”.
I did it for a lot of years.. starting in high school. Ask Circuit City my part time employer when I was in college. Where are my suits– waiting for me to get a new treadmill and money to pay for a dry cleaner.
US Government– I agree my services are not going to be needed by most government personnel. further, I do not wish to work for the government nor have any dealings with them except DOJ/FBI. I also asked why the statement about my teeth came from government white women?
Dr. Goodman– a college math professor– said what up? I cannot afford a dentist- because the government will not release my settlement funds and I feel bad your women have no respect for me?
I did not know they did in the first place. that said- I do not work for the US Government– I am more business and technology– and most of your women would have looked out of place in the support roles available in any of my corporate offices– I fail to see why my time is wasted with crap like this.
I am not trying to get respect from white women of the US government. I am trying to get their asses out of my life and the cameras they have access to- turned off. My rights are being violated. You want to bring me in line? [Something I heard one of the completely bald white guys of gov. say –this morning. He thought it was a race thing– that’s is why it is okay to continue with the gain issues. No, he read the “trash on the pot..” post and it was not that bad– he agreed– he just thought he needed to bring this “n” in line. He also said– their crap started long before I wrote the “Trash on the Potomac” post. Something I said too. That said– more defined confirmation not provided until Feb 2012– with earpiece activation. I am told he is in danger of losing his job– because of last night and this morning.]. You want my bag? [This is confirmed– I am worth too much they want the bag, part of the hold up. Not because of what I can prove– but my software mostly.] You are violating my rights. Black, white and hispanic of government have violated my rights. It is not a race thing. I am not insured– and it was a cover up and I am just too connected. I did not know. Get off me.
Respect? are you kidding? Get your idiots out of my ear.
Update- later in the day.
Ben — do not know if you heard.. They bald guy this morning said “Ben said ” and not “Rock said”. I asked him if you were paying his salary. Last time I asked– you were still not a government employee. Joyce Anderson’s son. Ben– why are people asking if I am your “b”? Surely not those that listen to us, right? He does not seem to understand– our strongest bond is my older sister– is your older sister… How often do I tell you- Ben- go see your real older sister? Why belabor this? Get the tapes.