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In September 1993, I was involved in an auto accident that I was lucky not to have been killed or seriously maimed. I discussed this event in the earlier version of Q’s Wire. Click here to review the earlier post in the text format.

When I was still in college, Darnetta made a mistake. She was with her first position after college[?] with Vitro. She had to go into the hospital to have cyst removed from her breast. I remember her telling me. I know it was then because she lived at home for about a year after she was supposed to have graduated from Norfolk State.

I think Darnetta thought I knew more than I did or she was on a fishing expedition. Either way, she said too much.

Who was behind the 93 accident? I am not sure. But what I think? I think if the Odenton folks or even my step cousins were the only ones with something to worry about, I would not be here. I am here because of someone or something else. I think– New York and/or the fact that Kate Matthews is– is more the reason I am here with no rights. Someone would have dealt with Darnetta. Darnetta is not the reason I am here. Kate Matthews and who knew what, I think is more the problem. I think the wrong people or community are trying to blackmail people like Don.

That said– the September 93 accident in Boone Town– I feel could be because of local issues or even the cousins. Don is not worried about me. Maybe the cousins are. Don isn’t. Don has other problems. Find those.

Find the real problem… The movie Disclosure. What is the real problem? It is not me.

I have never been envious of most things. Not siblings, other relatives, friends nor business associates. Billie Mitchell [Rockwell] once suggested I was in a competition with coworkers. I looked at him perplexed and asked why we were not working in a more team like manner.

I have never competed for anything. Not jobs, guys, nor attention. As a matter of fact I have had too much attention– from an early age. That is now explained to me.

Anyone that was on the scene when I knew and associated with the Kings [Darnetta, Sonia and Perry] understands that I was not envious of her. It was probably the other way around. Back then my lighter skin and the fact I had hair was a big deal to black guys. Darnetta was dark and about 5 years older. I am putting Darnetta in these relationships:

The Reporter + Darnetta [Salma]
Robert Davis + Darentta [Sister Sister]
Sam Johnson + Darnetta [Track Star]

I do not think Salma is Gene’s. Hair very thin and her chin looks more like the reporter’s.

I met Darnetta well after Richard Nixon resigned. Salma was born 1966 according to public records. I think more like 1970. I was just arriving in Tucson from England in 1970 and Richard Nixon was president. Chili of TLC has a birth-date in 1972. I was just arriving to Maryland in late 1972 and did not know Sonia nor any of the Kings.

I think a mistake when they were boys– left my step cousins or at least the reporter a little confused and his parents [I think he is a Pickens– as in T Boone Pickens] intervened. Sonia and Darnetta. For whatever reason as the Watergate scandal ends– the Kings are put into my life through Cheryl and the fact they become neighbors in Odenton. I have a learner’s permit to drive and a car and I need a licensed driver. Darnetta becomes that role in my life.

Even though the family always pretended they wanted me around — they really did not and I see that now.

Why am I not envious of Darnetta? Darnetta is not wow. Salma is. I had attention when I walked in their house– even though I would not have cared if I had not. Guys made a big deal over me. I dressed, had a cute figure and behaved like a quiet visitor. For some reason this garnered me a lot of attention.

I look at Salma– and believe I am right about her. She always reminded me of Darnetta– but I thought it just coincidence. I do not think so now. When I met the Kings I never saw anyone in their house that looked like her. They are dark and though Darnetta has sort of straight hair, my sister’s is straighter. Do you understand?

I am not envious of Salma– and wonder why people do not claim their ties. In her case– I think she is so pretty that if I were her parents– I would claim her. By the way, I am too young to be her mother. Same thing for Gene. I believe Camille is his mother. I would claim him. I do not live in a secret world. I took Gene to a Boeing Christmas Party.

A competition over who is prettier, smarter or who can make more money in the CIA’s world? It is a secret. I am not envious of secrets. When I walked into the doors of Boeing, GE and Rockwell I walked in as Regina Thomas. I did not walk into the backdoor to Bruce’s bedroom. I took handsome Gene to a party related to my job in Tyson’s Corner. I went to a Redskins game and sat next to Mel’s lawyer and wife. Do you understand?

I am not envious of anyone’s bedroom they cannot claim– but then again I am not envious of most things. Mrs. Hopson was a regular visitor to my house throughout my high school and college years. Darnetta is no Mrs. Hopson. She is no Salma. I am not envious of Salma. I like tweaking my problems. Salma has thin hair. The only thing I can find I would want to fix. I would get bored with only that one problem to fix. By the way– most are not Salma nor Mrs. Hopson.

Why would I be envious of other people’s secrets? I wouldn’t even be jealous if my step cousin said– Regina this is my daughter. I would tell him– she is lovely. Darentta was not.

I have had a lot of problems and someone steals from my online efforts? The Nixons have never called me. They may claim privately a connection but I do not know that. They should not benefit from my online work. No one should– other than me. I am not a secret and I do not fund relatives through my hard work. I do not care who they are or who they think they are.

I believe people like T Boone Pickens and Rockefeller hired– the Nixons, Kennedy’s, Reagans, etc. In the secret relative world– Bruce [the reporter] is the one that says I hired you. My ties are Presidents and Kings [literally– not the kings of Odenton]. I think Pickens– knew that.

Sam or JR– he works for the reporter. Women probably make the mistake of thinking he is the big deal because of Reagan. He was a good actor for that role. I like the reporter. I hope we are friends one day.

Can you tell my face is getting smaller?

Photo taken just before I went down to exercise– this evening. Going out for dinner tomorrow and hope that I can drop at least 7 pounds in the next week. I do not weigh myself so it is more how may face looks or how loose my clothes hang.

Why do I look so angry? Not sure. I had just finished about 5 Tysons Honey barbecue wings– I should look greedy. Tried them at Costco and have been hooked ever since. I think each wing is 45 calories.

I also think I look evil because I am tired of asking what have I overlooked while trying to maintain a rigorous exercise schedule and find new business.

The nickname for the area just outside of Fort Meade– Boone Town is beginning to have new meaning for me. If someone had told me back then that I would become friends with what appear to be my step cousins mates– I would have been amazed. Right now– I am tired of Boone Town and the same people — over and over. When I lived in Odenton I did not know these people that well. I feel like someone has thrown a lot of crap into my life. I did not know they had my step cousins kids or for that matter any kids. I am not mad. My cadet had a child with Darnetta years earlier that I never knew about? I do not think you can imagine my irritation at being part of such a small world. When I thought it was Jennifer that stole my interesting guy [the cadet]– I thought why my world? Now I see that these people were used elsewhere before and later inserted into my world. This is too small a world for me.

I think what really bothers me– I am taking a hard look into other people’s lives and if any of this is true, have no idea what it has to do with me. Why would this interfere with my life?

Lets not ask why I look angry again…

Awhile back I discussed the reporter, Sonia and Chili of TLC. I said I thought Chili could be their child. At the time I thought the reporter was Gene. He is not. I believe he is his younger brother.

If the reporter knew Sonia, it is also possible Gene knew Darnetta– supposedly Sonia’s older sister. Selma Hayek always reminded me of Darnetta. She is even in one of his [Gene is now an actor] movies. Darnetta a dark skin girl with straighter hair coupled with George Clooney features could produce a Selma Hayek. Darnetta looked black and perhaps part indian [as in the country India].

Is this possible. Darnetta seemed to dislike me before I met Gene– so Gene is not her excuse. The car, clothes, attention? Of course I think there are family ties and I live in a small world.

I thought Selma Hayek was hispanic. If I am right– unless Clark Gable was hispanic– she has very little hispanic blood running through her veins. She is dark.

Why put these possibilities out there? Because I do not know what lies could have caused the horrific events in my life. I have lived to quiet and conservative a life to have my issues. Someone is worried about me — or was. Why?

I did not even know bill Cosby could be an uncle. Gene and the reporter look like his step kids. Why worry about me?

Of course– I have no proof other than events I cannot explain. That said– something about Darnetta tells me that as much as I feel she does not like me– she also does not like Gene. I am not angry about this– I simply want to prove why I may be an issue for some.

Birth year for Selma Hayik and Gene look wrong. His to late, hers too early.

Post title? Les Guille [Rockwell Office Director] said this to me when I was invited to tell a group of Rockwell executives and others why I should be allowed to smoke in my office.

I once said that if you walked into my life offering friendship– you were insured or had some secret that those concerned with my and my family’s existence, felt comfortable with. At the time I called it the “shun notice”. I am not talking about family and old family friends. I am talking about those I have met as I began my early teen years– however, I see issues with even friends in Tucson. My workplace? I am not sure and it does not matter for purposes of this discussion. Odenton? Yes. And not only my friends, but those of my sister and brother.

I believe a lot of my family and old family friends have felt pressure to become insured. I believe, Richard Nixon’s Checkers issue- key. Andy Griffith may also be a factor.

Pressured? I have felt pressure in this time frame. Never before I left Rockwell– but after. Pressure to do what? I am not sure, but what I did do– was find the issues and discuss them. I have been subjected to a lot horrific events– suggesting that someone thought I had secrets. What it looks like happened? I had none and therefore most [those with secrets] were concerned and may have lied on me. The problem for the FBI– I held security clearances with extensive checks, stable employment, education and skills suggesting I really worked and concerned myself with my career. I also believe I have had some type of surveillance most of my life.

As I began to understand the insurance issues, I accepted there could be issues with friends and family. Issues– really secrets that in the light of day– are not accepted as normal. I do not sit in judgement on these issues. I more than anyone– see that a lot of pressure may have been brought to bare– especially on family or very old family friends or associates.

Today, I think I see wary. I see guarded. I am sorry. I am looking for lies, however I am not looking to set anyone up. Because I discussed this [shun factor] in some detail long ago– I thought it was behind us. Sometimes I see what appears to be someone suggesting I need insurance to be protected by laws and become part of the family. I feel like I have been punished by the shunned for not being part of the group. I thought I had a family. The fact that I learned, they may have secrets does not mean that I want more of a relationship with them than I had before all this began. My Uncle Howard once told me I was rather aloof. I am. I like sitting and listening. That said, a lot of relatives and friends do not share my interests. I would not want to bore them and I do not want them to bore me.

That I could share in family funds? Right now– I am wondering why I cannot pay myself. I am more than capable. I have a certain set of values that I am not willing to change to belong. I thought I did belong. You have secrets– keep them and come visit. Have dinner. Do not expect me to be any less aloof, now that I know your secrets. Expect me to understand the pressure you may have faced. Expect me to not sit in judgement. I was not given a choice. I will not agree to something to make someone else feel I am not a threat. I have a software business. I do not want your job nor to run this country. It looks to me like if I am insured— you can steal from me and I cannot scream at the DOJ and FBI. Why would I do that? I am screaming at the DOJ and FBI. Why are you allowing someone to steal from me in broad daylight? Why are you allowing someone to violate my rights?

The post title– “Pretty Woman” quietly uttered by Julia Roberts at one point in the movie.

Every time I ask my mother about Freddie Freeman she tells me she does not now know what he is up to. Several years ago he owned a software company. Freddie Freeman is the cousin from Dover that I had no time for. He reminds me of Sam Brownback.

When I first developed the market bugs for Maryland Wired– my first news service, a listing of the servlet code turned up missing. I had a problem with Java and setting time so I had printed the code to paper so I could look at the code when I located my reference manual. I never found the listing and within months the feed source was sold to a major network. I was really angry. I wondered if someone in my family had given my listing to someone. Needless to say– I try not to leave anything lying around, these days.

In 2004, I had jury duty. I bought a safe to keep things like code and other things away from prying hands and eyes– including my family’s. I used to leave source code and master copies of sites [html files] on computers that were easily accessed by visitors to the house. I noticed changes to things. I also kept documentation that I had supplied to DOJ in open files. I no longer do that– either. Have not for some time.

My mother does not tell me JR [Freddie Freeman] owns a software company any longer. My question– if Freddie is Sam– and Sam’s software company is mine– why would this be the case? Sam cannot blackmail me. I have nothing to hide. Does my mother think she is protecting me? From what? Did JR lie to her?

I think I had lunch with JR at a Radar seminar when I was with Boeing. I also think I had lunch with him as the Why Me? search began. I do not care who JR has been with. Why would I owe him? Has he been with Diana, the temp from Rockwell, a president’s daughter or a first lady? I do not know. He has not been with me– and I do not owe him. I do not care who he slept with. Why would my mother say Freddie had a software company– if he did not?

Where are the funds from my efforts, being diverted?

Yes, I asked Michelle if she knew Sam Brownback– but I also gave her my business email indicating qisoftware.com as the domain sometime ago. Why would she ask if I worked for Sam? He reminds me of JR and Ronald Reagan.

I do not like blackmail. I believe someone has either lied to my mother or she thinks she can be blackmailed. That or she thinks being a Presidents black child is important. I don’t. Not even if they have slept with other notables. JR better not have his nose in my business. Nor should his bastards. I am not kidding.

Why do I not evolve my software? Security issues. I keep my software offline and always with me. Because it is so easy to mimic key clicks I also cut and paste wherever possible. I often say I will look at it later when I could debug the problem immediately with any of my computers. I use the oldest and slowest platform available for software development. I am not the only programmer in the world. I am the only programmer I know. C programmers used to be worth a lot. The internet has done nothing to diminish that need. I do not like family stealing my code. Not everyone can Java. I have 15 years + of C experience. Ask where someone got their Java experience if they have a widget I claim is mine. I have the experience. Not my sister, brother nor pretend aunts and their lovers. C programmers with GUI [x-windows] skills are not readily available. I have these skills. My employment history supports this fact. Who took my servlet listing? Do they have my work history? Do they own a site that showcases the tools on WiredPages? Someone is stealing from me. This is my work. Who is stealing from me?

I had lunch with an old family friend today at Sonoma’s in Washington. The friend works on capital hill and a convenient venue for her. I did not remember she worked for capital hill when I called last week. Michelle is a Chief of Staff for a congressman [Chaka Fattah]. I am so negative on congress and anything to do with government outside of legal channels– that I am a little concerned I was too negative. It is just that I will not welcome any interference from them. I told her I had asked the FBI/DOJ to investigate long ago. She asked if I had heard anything and whether she could check on anything for me. I told her no. I am concerned that congress appears to be another group that does not understand NO. And I would rather be too negative than have anyone misunderstand.

The Jefferson Memorial in the backdrop. Stopped at the Tidal Basin after lunch. I should have come straight home– traffic was awful.

I also asked if she knew Sam Brownback. She said no, and asked if I worked for him. I choked back a retort, smiled and explained no I would not work for Sam Brownback.

Michelle is excited about the upcoming election. I did not share in her enthusiasm or interest. I explained, that I worked so much that I had little time for anything else.

We also talked about family. I thought she knew Jan and Greg. She said no. I asked if she knew Cheryl and Roni. She said no– but oddly enough she brought up Cheryl’s name later in the conversation. Seeming to suggest she did know her. I believe Sam knows both Cheryl and her [Michelle’s] sister, Brenda. Michelle told me her age today. She is several years older than me.

Why so much detail? I had hoped to learn more about what happened to family and friends. She seemed surprised to learn that I never see Cheryl, Roni and Jan and seemed to want to discuss my sister and brother. I explained that I was never close to Judy and Andre and rarely saw them. I did not explain that I had not spoken to Andre since he assaulted me and I had to call the police– about 2 years ago.

For some reason I also had to explain that when we were teens Brenda– her sister came to visit Judy my sister and not me. Maybe that was why she mentioned Cheryl again. Yes, Cheryl was my family friend visitor. Not Roni, not Brenda, Cheryl.

I think there is an issue with Cheryl and Brenda– not sure if Sam is the reason. Me, I am always concerned with mistaken identity. I had really hoped to stay in touch. She seemed uncomfortable. We were not close– but the only news I ever get is through my mother– and I like getting other points of view.

Another issue I am concerned about– I let her pick up the tab. I wanted to split it. I do not go out on social calls like this often and used to split the tab all the time. Should I have made more of a fuss?

Does she know about my site? I gave her my card today and sent her family a card with a business card sometime ago. She should.

Barbara Walters was next door to the restaurant for a book signing. There was a long line. I did not stop in. A young lady informed the restaurant patrons why there was a long line next door. Channel 7 also had a news van on site. I am going to find out what Barbara is writing about these days. It was rainy in Washington today.